nevada

it was incredible. always is. we had a great time. met some great people. 'd' for one. i mean... sure let's say that. never pulled a handle, didn't win a dime. regrets? not taking the job when it was offered. would i like the opportunity again. i think so. would do some things differently. the restaurant across the street from our hotel is my favorite. if i knew i was dying tomorrow. 14oz. filet. medium. truffled mac & cheese without a question. we looked good in tuxedos. i owned that town for the night. what a life. today i spent some time in the woods with cooper. they are worlds apart. my life... and the other. i love things about both... but they could never exist at the same time. i guess that's why they say change is inevitable. it is. i feel as though i'm having a hard time letting go this time. i mean. the whole event deeply saddens me... this has nothing to do with much of anything i've previously written... it just feels good to say it. i miss it. there. i'm done. moving on, right? like a parade. i went to a fall parade a few weeks back with my nephews. they didn't throw as much candy from the fire trucks as i had remembered. altogether we salvaged, three pieces of gum... a few dum dums...  and a partially ran over fun sized snickers bar. who decided those were a fun size? i personally prefer the larger ones. up to 2.5 miles most days. trying to become a catch. felt like i once was. those were the days. i fell asleep in a movie theatre last night. threw frisbee with cooper this morning. winterized his suite. tarps to block the cold wind, heated water bowl... i love that dog. he understands me. or pretends to. the best cheeseburger i've ever consumed had a thick slice of grilled pineapple on it. who knew? felt a need to breathe on the third day... and enjoyed my time very much so. it's cold. perhaps warmth is on the way. in some way.